everything work out i promise. every one has said to me, you and walter can't break up. fielding even said if we don't get back together he will kill himself haha. you and i were amazing together. we had a relationship that every one dreamed about. But you are right i didn't trust you. I still love you and please don't think this is getting any easy it isn't. But you know me and i always try to be a happy person and i hate being depressed about stuff so i try to just put it in the back of my mind. I still have pictures of you all over my room because i am terrified if i take them down i will have nothing left of you. You are an amazing person walter. you did everything a girl could want. i mean you sent me a freakin' button maker. :) But you are right after that year in Japan i couldn't trust you. and i am sorry but i had reasons not too. You were my whole world for 3 years and when you came home i felt that i wasn't. and you know me walter, i hate not being #1. i hate not touching you at all times :)

the only thing that is helping me get through this as well as i have , is that thought that i know i will be with you in the end. I just think we both need to realize stuff about ourselves first.

i love you walter.