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[Sep. 7th, 2005|01:08 pm] |
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so last night i'm sitting at a red light in the front of the row heading toward work. i see this white honda trying to make a left turn. they hit the gas then hesitated for a second then hit it again. half way through the turn BAM! head on into a nissan.the nissan was heading straight and the honda thought they had enough time to make the turn. i guess not though. the nissan was heading east. the honda was turning from west to north. after the collision both cars faced north. it was like 15-20ft in front of my car. i was in the middle lane so the guy to my right and i both turned our headlights off but left our parking lights on with the hazards flashing. one dude called 911 and the guy from the truck went to the honda. they looked shocked but okay and were on their phones quick. the girl driving the nissan sat on the street by her car. 2 army medics saw it and stopped. the girl was able to get up so we each held one of her arms and helped walk/carry her to the side. she was starting to go in shock so we kept her calm and covered with blankets. i was a little scared when i first went up to her because her car was smoking and you could smell something burning. i was like fuck man i hope that thing doesn't catch. it didn't. her boyfriend was in the car and he was fine. as soon as his friend came they took her subs out of the car and in the friends truck. the two girls in the hinda were taken away on stretchers. the 2 army medics left and since i watched the thing happen i had to fill out a police report. i gave the girl and her boyfriend my name and number in case they need me for anything. like i said i watched the whole thing happen like 15ft in front of my car. man...they hit hard too. the nissan was doing like 35 and the honda 5-10 almost dead head on. the girl and her mom were like thank so much sir i appreciate it and all this. i was like hey no problem. since i know cpr and how to treat shock and all that i was told we're somewhat obligated to stop and help. fuck that even if i didn't know that stuff i would still stop and help. i mean if i were in that situation i would hope somebody would help me. after that i got into work and at like 3am we had a missile launch go off so that killed a lot of time fast. a navy guy started to fall asleep and major scott was like hey you're swaying like you've been drinking all night. he was like sorry sir i'm just dead tired. so captain edmonson was like well hey if all else fails crack works great!! it might not sound funny and maybe we were all just tired and delirious but at the time it was funny. |
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[Aug. 19th, 2005|01:58 pm] |
so at work we have this one phone conference that ties all the centers in the mountain together along wit ha couple that are outside the mountain. after we watched super troopers a while back we kept trying to get our captain to say meow over the loop. last night during an exercise he said how many times do you think i can do it. we were like no shit sir, you're gonna do it? we said 5. they cut the exercise down but he did get three. there was one point there was silence over the loop and our army ssg keyed in and said meow over the loop. funny shit. we were waiting for one of the colonels to call and chew us out but i guess they didn't know who was saying it.
the cops out here are out in force. not just the springs but the whole state. the traps they set are crazy. there will be like 4 cops sitting there and one will be checking speeds. as soon as they get one they take off one by one after people. that or they sit they and clock and like 1/2 mile down the road another one is sitting then he'll pull out and get ya. yesterday i heard they were dressed up like construction workers clocking people and they had like 4 bikes and 2 cars sitting behind some bushes that hauled ass after you.
other than that. i think i'm cutting this down and almost out.
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[Aug. 1st, 2005|02:48 pm] |
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last night i played my best game of hockey this season and perhaps ever. i had 2 goals 2 assists and just played real aggressive and very good. i fell early and hit my head again but it wasn't hard so i kept going. it hurt a bit this morning. saturday i'm going camping but first i'm moving into my new apartment. i'm so excited. i have hockey just about every night this week so i'm happy about that too. school is good. this one instructor keeps trying to mess me up with all the info he gives me that i have to pass over a phone conference in a certain amount of time but every time i rock it. he seems pretty impressed so ha. also saw a picture of me in the paper for that salute the troops thing i did. that was cool. i'll take a picture of it and post it later. thats it for now. |
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[Jul. 15th, 2005|12:42 pm] |
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so i got a call from some lady at norad today. the pikes peak international raceway is having a salute to the troops thing on saturday july 23. they are having the youngest member of each branch in the area come out in uniform to help some general give out awards or something. anyway i am the youngest Marine in the area so i was picked to do that. in uniform in front of a ton of people. thats gonna rock. now i need to rush to get new chevrons on some on my uniforms and my blood stripe on my pants. rock on! |
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[Jul. 11th, 2005|03:56 pm] |
so yeah. my car now has euro tail lights. i also have black and blue seat covers for the front, a black and blue steering wheel cover, and blue chrome looking windshield wipers. i also have tinted windows now. next i think i may try to an intake then an exhaust. later on rims and tires. i had a hockey game last night. we actually won so now we have three wins, woo hoo. i kept getting tripped and was starting to get a little pissed about it but with a minute left their goalie tripped and and got a penalty. i skated for a line change and then our player/coach was like i want you out. i asked if he met out as in on the bench and he was like no i want you out on the floor. one minute left up by one and he tells me he wants me out there. that was an awesome feeling. i'm really hard on myself about my hockey skills so when he said i was one he wanted out there in a tight spot like that it made my day. and sure enough at one point i was able to tie up their top scoring guy for that game. it rocked!! went camping with matthew and his family over the fourth of july and drove through a mud puddle. the thing is the truck bounced out of it and when it landed a tree went through the floor board and into the cab to the back window. hahaha it was a sight to see. nobody was hurt since it was just me and he dad was cool about it since it was just his beater truck and not his kick ass dodge. oh yeah, i was promoted to Cpl so now i am an NCO. that rocks too.
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[Jun. 25th, 2005|05:09 pm] |
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i just checked online and it says the cutting score for Cpl this month for my MOS is 1540. i have a 1554. that means i'm getting Cpl. if its true i now have authority, i get my blood stripe, i'll be an NCO. hell yeah. the only strange thing is that 28 guys are getting it which is rare. either way though it looks like i'm Cpl Brown as of frida!!!!!1 |
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[Jun. 25th, 2005|03:04 pm] |
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nothing new really. i started my missile warfare school. in one week we've already taken two tests with a prog check on tuesday or wednesday and another test on like thursday. i'm doing pretty good for coming into this blind. everyone else has some sort of background in missiles and satellites so they have quite an advantage over me with this. my tests were a 100 and a 92 so like i said, i'm not doing too bad. yesterday i stopped in at a car accessory shop. i ordered a pair a euro tail lights made by pilot for my car. if you don't know what those are, they are those clear tail lights you see on some cars. when i get paid again i'm going to have him tint my windows. he said they tint as dark as legally possible and since i have black interior they'll look just that much darker. when i do that i may also get new bulbs for my headlights/fog lamps so they have that blue look. then i'm going to get a cool air intake from AEM and a little bit after that an exhaust. eventually i plan on getting better rims, a new gas brake and clutch pedal, a new shifter knob that is chrome but the gears that are on the knob glow blue, a new mesh thing that goes around the shifter in blue. i've thought about getting that chrome edging that goes up the edge of your door. not too sure though. way down the road i'd like to get a bod kit for both bumpers and side skirts. the dude told me once they make headers and some computer chip for my car that i can get that put on too. i don't know anything about that but i was like sweet. this'll be a long process since prices for some things are very expensive but my car is gonna be tiiiiiiight. so by next weekend i'll have new tail lights on and possibly tint if he can fit me in. my buddy matt said he would give me his subs since he has a jeep and can't use them anymore. so if that goes through...niiiiiiice. i found a box for those that has blue neon in it so that'd look sweet. i may also put neon around the speakers on my front doors. i don't know if i'd like that or not. anyway, i'm really excited about this. it's going to take quite a while but once it's all done. i'll be very happy. =) |
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[Jun. 19th, 2005|10:10 am] |
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went four wheeling with matthew and his girl yesterday. we took the baby too. she was quit the whole time just enjoying being outside. any time it looked a little too rough tianna, i think thats how you spell it, got out and walked with the baby while matthew and i drove through it. we went up to miller rock and ate took some pictures and then came back down. went to tiannas for a bit and her mom had us all stay for dinner which was cool. matthew and i both wanted to get some sun so we just wore wife beaters. of course we're both burnt to shit now. i figure i'll do my arms and shoulders then i'll burn my back and chest. all at once is misery so i'll section it off, haha. i'm a little tempted to turn in my neon for a jeep though. those things can go just a lot more places that trucks can't even go. if i were to matthew knows people who will hook me up with a lift and some bigger mud tires. with the sides, top and doors off those things are nice then the whole four wheeling part is cool too. i'll make it through the snow better. i mean i'll be out here for the next three years and if i can get a job as a civilian up there afterward i may be out here pretty much for good. i just like the "luxury" of my neon compared to the jeep though. the ride and everything. matthew let me drive the jeep around though after we put the top back on. it was pretty tempting. i loved driving with it open.i dunno, we'll have to see. i have hockey tonight. then i start my missile course tomorrow. my move in date for the apartment is tuesday. good stuff. |
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[Jun. 17th, 2005|11:25 pm] |
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i start my missile school on monday so they gave me today and the rest of the weekend off of work. so i came up to my sisters place and went out with matthew and his girl tonight. now up here every friday and saturday night everyone brings their car out to cruise main street. lots of racing and lots of cop stops. its pretty cool. so we drove around for a while just hanging out. then we went off down some country roads looking for dirt roads leading into fields to go driving through. it was so nice though. we took the top, sides and doors off his jeep and it was a clear night so you could see all the stars out there. anyway, we had no luck so we went into subdivisions and found a couple roads and went driving into some fields over some mounds and shit. nothing to exciting but still fun to get out and do. tomorrow hes calling me and we are going off roading during the day then cruising main again at night. oh yeah we ran into his cousin jake at one point and right after i left matthew and his girl i saw a bunch of police lights and shit. when i got by them i saw that a dude was trying to do tricks on his bike and ate shit bad. the bad was done and there were like 6 cop cars 2 fire trucks and an ambulance. i bet that put a damper on old boys night. oh yeah, i saw a police chase a couple weeks ago. just as i passed the car that had been pulled over he punched it and the cop ran back to his truck. the guy kept getting caught in traffic blah blah blah. make a long story short, at the last second the car jumped 3 lanes of traffic off an exit and the police car and truck both went straight so he actually got away for the time being. cool shit. |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2005|11:45 pm] |
i haven't felt like this in a few years but i do again.
i quit...on more than you think or know
sorry
goodbye |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2005|10:38 pm] |
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nothing new or at least nothing worth talking about really. went to some drop in/try out hockey thing. the guy said 2-3 times that i was really good. i didn't think so. my conditioning isn't there. i had my bursts of energy but with the elevation and the fact i havne't played in 2 years i was just not in hockey conditioning. the league is suppose to start this sunday so that should be cool. the try out went from 10pm-midnight. it was ok the only bad thing besides being out of shape was when i took a shot in my right ankle. stung a little but he didn't get all of it so it could have been a lot worse. i should be getting my housing allowance on the 15 so i set my move in date for the apartment as june 21. hopefully that works out. |
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[May. 28th, 2005|09:31 pm] |
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man, i've been thinking all day. gotten really depressed. just thinking about everything from when i was a kid until now. my life has been nowhere near as bad as others by any means . but man...i've gotten pretty bummed out. the friends i've had, the friends i've lost, the people i've loved, the people i've hurt. the teams i've played on and the things i've won and earned. when i was a boy i wanted nothing more than to be a Marine. a United States Marine. the best of the best. the elite of the armed forces which protect the american people and their way of life. i was 17 and signed up august 1, 2002 into the delayed entry program. i went to the monthly meetings and was yelled at and slapped on my wrists and elbows by the recruiters while doing drill. june 30 2003 i went to MEPS and to the airport for a flight down to the island. i got off the plane to be met by drill instructors screaming at us right there in the airport. i made my 15-30 second phone call home. mom i'm here i'm safe you'll get my address soon i gotta go, love you bye. thats what i told my mom that night. we went into the basement and stood heel to toe for 2-3 hours while we were processed in one or two at a time. once finished we were rushed onto a bus told to put our heads on our laps and shut our mouths. we then rode 45 minutes maybe to Marine Corps Recruit Depot Parris Island. the bus drove through the gate where we saw 2 MP's. the first Marines we saw besides recruiters. the last that wouldn't be yelling at us for 3 months. the bus pulled up to the infamous yellow footprints and we waited. we waited for about 5 minutes before the big silver doors flung open, 1....2....3 drill instructors came rushing toward the bus. now imagine that sick to your stomach oh shit knot in the stomach scared feeling you get when a cop pulls you over and multiply it by 20. that is the feeling we had. one came on the bus screaming then told us to get off. as we did two others were there yelling at us as we filled the yellow prints. from then on it was three months on nonstop in your face screaming, training, running, crawling through mud and water, hours and hours of rifle drill, getting pushed around and in some cases worse than that. treated like we were worse than shit and didn't deserve a damn thing. a few times i thought what did i do, why did i do this. i just want to go home. but this is what i wanted. i asked to go through this. i asked to go through the longest and hardest boot camp the United States has to offer. i went on 10 mile hikes with full gear. i did it while having a high fever but not saying anything so i didn't go to medical and risk getting dropped back to a new platoon. i went through the rain and the heat. i went through the mornings when i was to sick to my stomach to eat breakfast. i would gag as i ate but still forced it down. i went through all of this and even more. i asked to go through this for my friends family and even the people who don't like me. i did this for america. i asked for it. and what do i have to show for it now...nothing, not one god damn thing. yeah they taught me how to fight and i am pretty far along the marine corps martial arts, big deal, how the fuck does that help me in 3 years. my MOS blows but i can't get out of it until i were to re-enlist even then my MOS is in need of people meaning i can't get out. another big reason i joined was Sept 11. i was walking down a hallway with beau messer and a kid was like hey someone flew a plane into the WTC. i was like oh that sucks things it was just like a little cessna. when i went into Mrs. Blowers class she was like walter look at this. i looked at the tv then i saw what happened. as we watched in 3rd hour on live tv the second plane hit the other tower. right then i knew no matter what i was going into the Marines. i've been in for two years now and haven't gone over to do my part. mark matice who has been in for about 6 months maybe, is already over there. guys have been there 2-3 times. i haven't been once. with my current station i know i won't go in the next 3 years. 5 years active duty as a Marine and not gone over to iraq. how can i call myself a Marine when i haven't done what we are known for. i haven't done anything to contribute to this. its the worst feeling to think that i'm wasting all of this. just sitting here typing this out when i should be over there in a bunker or a guard tower or with my unit that is going over there. riding in a convoy to protect it from ambushes. instead orders brought me here. i was so disappointed when i found out they were going and i'm was coming home. those are my friends. i got my smallpox shot and got sick for like 3 days form that...for nothing. i've got nothing to show for the work i did. i've got no one to call my own. i blow everything good that comes my way. Marines never quit but i'm giving up on this. i remember on family day morning. we were running the 3-4 mile "moto run" as we ran by second battalion on one side and Iwo Jima on the other i looked to the left and saw my mom and terry. i couldn't wave, but i was a road guard and had a flashlight so i just shined it straight at them. on the video you can't see me but you see my light. i made the rest of the run no problem. i remember standing there and hearing our series GySgt yell forward march and we marched out onto Peatross Parade Deck. we never marched so straight stood so tall looked so hard as we did that day. the first time we saw our family in 3 months. we were given time to visit which was a huge relief from the hard work. the next day was graduation. we again marched out there tall and proud. then the final command came from our Senior Drill Instructor, Senior Drill Instructor Ssgt Mcculler, "Platoon 1 thousand seventy six (1076) DISMISSED!" we took one step back shouted "AYE SIR" did an about face and shouted "OHH-RAH!!" and just like that it was over. we just finished the impossible. the thing people said we were crazy for doing and that we would die doing. we did it. people and other branches look up to us. what do i have to show for it now...nothing. i haven't done anything as a Marine to "protect america and its way of life" i haven't done anything to help the war effort. it sucks. then i think about terry. we started out great, nothing changed even after boot camp. we were inseparable besides when i did have to leave because of orders. otherwise it was all the same. boot camp, mct, mos school, not a change. then japan came. then the fights came, the lack of trust came. all we do now is fight and say things we know will piss of and hurt the other one. we've both said we just want to stop talking to the other and move on but neither of us can. yet we can't get along for one phone call. it always ends in a hang up or bitching. on both parts. she seem to be handling it pretty good finally. she had a rough time with it at first but now shes getting along with out me. i am proud of her for putting up with me and for staying with me as long as she did. i know it was hard but she did. whoever ends up putting a ring on her finger for good will be a lucky guy. she deserves the best which i can't give her. i tried and failed. she is right, she gave me everything i ever asked for. she did everything i asked. most of the time without hesitation because it was for me. she even quit talking to her best friend of two years for me because when she started dating me it caused problems between the two of them. and if she happens to read this i want jobeth to know i'm sorry for coming between them like i did. i'm glad that they are talking again. hopefully it works out for the two of them. i had a great girl and i lost her. its my fault. not 100% my fault bu mostly mine. i'm sorry for how it ended but it wasn't healthy. it was going down hill too fast. its better for her this way. she can meet a guy who treats her just as good as she treats him. i tried to give her the world, i tried to give her everything i could...and i failed. now we barely seem to even be friends. our phone calls aren't longer than 10 minutes before the yelling starts. i'll miss her but shes right, i'm a stupid boy and don't deserve her. i didn't realize what had until i didn't have her anymore. theresa deserves the world, she deserves more than i can or ever will be able to give her. so i wish her the best of luck and hope all goes well and works out for her. as for me. i'm just calling it quits. just doing my time until the three years are up and then i don't know what im going to do with my life. i really have no idea.
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feelings disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
and you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
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[May. 23rd, 2005|12:21 am] |
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so i was driving next to another car and an MP on peterson pulls me over and gives me a speeding citation. 36 in a 30. the one who acme to the car was an airmen first class i think, an E-3. he was all nervous and stumbling over his words. what a fag, hahaha. i didn't have to pay anything and it does't go on my record so no insurance increase. he said on base the tickets are like a warning. there are 12 points and if you hit 12 points in 12 months you lose driving rights on base. so i have 2 points right now. if i stay good for 12 months they get taken off and i am back to zero. work has been cool. i got to see what they do when there is a real missile launch and stuff. i go to the school from june 20 - august 8. the days are like 8-1:30 or 2. not bad. i should be moving into my own apartment soon. excited for that. adam judge said he and adam davey want to come out this summer. that would rock. uuuhh...i went out and bought band of brothers. oh yeah my sister is bringing back my hockey stuff because i found like 6 places to play so thats pretty cool too. got in touch with my buddy matt out here and he and i are hanging out later on. i think thats all for now. alrighty. |
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[May. 11th, 2005|10:45 pm] |
so yesterday we had an all hands enlisted meeting for members of NORAD, NORTHCOM, and STRATCOM. a 3 star general for the army came in and gave some speech to us for about an hour. at the end he asked who was 22 and younger so me and like 8 others stood up. then he asked who was 21 and younger and it was me and some air force female. i looked around and said well ooh rah to us. right after i say that hes like oh good you can have the first question Marine. i wa slike fuck man i had to open my mouth. i stood there for about 2-3 minutes while people were making little comments like oh you had to open your mouth and oh he froze now. mind you it was about 80-100 enlisted people in there. then i asked him what in the morning is the one thing he looks forward to in his day, every day. he was like oh good question, sit down Marine. he answered then went on to others. now the military has this thing for giving coins when some one deserves slight recognition and little things like that. well the SgtMaj of the enlisted forces for NORAD, NORTHCOM, and STRATCOM, gave the 3 star a coin and was like i hope this doesn't end up in the box of coins you have. the general then said i'll make sure it goes some place better, where is that young Marine who asked me that first question, i stood up and said here sir then he was like well come on up here. once i got there he proceeded to give me the coin and shake my hand and tell me how its good to see young people like me willing to serve our country and things like that. it was pretty cool. as he walked out with an E-9 for the Marines he told the E-9 that was the best damn question he had been asked in his 30 years. how cool is that. then on my way out with my sgt an air force sgt gave us both another coin. my sgt for the years of work he had done there and me for the years of work i will do there. 2 coins in 30 minutes, cool shit.
today when that little plane broke the no fly zone it was kind of cool. i was in the air warning center when it happened and watched everyone jump around and work to find out who that guy was. thats where they track air craft around the no fly areas. on the news they said they were talking to NORAD and NORTHCOM which was cool because i was inside the mountain at those places. kind of neat i guess. i have two flight suites now and a coat that i wear and i work on shifts starting sunday. i work 6 days and get 4 off. i also have an apartment picked out which i should move into soon. also found out my pros and cons will go up a lot here even though they are already good and i should pick up cpl pretty soon as long as i stay out of trouble.
alrighty thats it for now.
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[May. 4th, 2005|02:27 pm] |
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i don't know....whatever....went into the mountain and saw where i work..its okay. registered my car so now it has the department of defense sticker on the windshield. maybe i'll update more later...meh, we'll see. |
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[Apr. 26th, 2005|01:42 am] |
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well terry and i broke up...hopefully we can be friends for the time being and see how it goes. i got my car which is cool. i learned holiday by green day which is cool. adam gave my three tattoos which rocks, i like them. i leave some time wednesday for colorado. long drive all alone. maaaaan thats gonna be boring. |
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[Apr. 13th, 2005|11:09 am] |
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so yes as you all probably know i'm home. i wanted to surprise my mom and terry monday in my dress blues at their works but they found out i was home on sunday and it all just back fired big time. oh well. i'm home until april 29 when i report to cheyenne mountain operations center to work at space command with NORAD. tomorrow i'm going with jeni to get my car from the dealer. which means i HAVE to hit the bank today. i'm sure i'll get lazy andhave to do it tomorrow and be all rushed and shit, haha. alright i'm off. |
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[Apr. 6th, 2005|12:36 pm] |
it sucks to see two of your buddies come back from Iraq and know that you'll probably never get the chance to go over there. i mean yeah its good to see them and i'm glad they made it back okay but it sucks to know that i'll probably never get the chance to go there.
oh yeah my birthday is this saturday. just another day really. no one here to really go out with since all the guys i normally hang out with are all deployed to WTI in Arizona then going to Thailand from there for Cobra Gold. not a teenager anymore...getting old man... |
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